The thing about learning from past mistakes, is to understand the difference between learning and understanding. I have come across a dilemma where I have been telling myself that I have "learned" from this mistake/ error of a case that has happened. Though did I really learn from it? Or have I simply just understood that there is a big mistake made and understand the situation? Have I learned enough to avoid instances which may be similar?
I don't think I have learned from this mistake that has occured, I simply am aware of what has been done. I may be too harsh on myself, but when difficult situations stumble upon you and it is not handled with full security.... things fall a part. Who am I too blame then? For those who were involved, ultimately I had to take the fall. I can only learn and avoid to involve myself in situations such once more, or else I begin to know I have no assertiveness upon my needs and wants.
God, lets get over that rant for a moment. I need to get out of this city...
I have been craving something new. The thought lingers throughout my mind of what it is, and I know. It isn't possible for now. I have obligations and responsibilites here. To be selfish and abandon those who depend on me is not within my moral. If I may say, it is definitley the people here. They are too self-centric and I understand (not so sure if I have learned) that these people like to use others. I am tired of being that resort for others. I am tired of being someone that people can get something out of. I am tired.
We move with grace and humility. I truly believe the best revenge is success.... and maybe other things but its too grim. Don't get me wrong I am not some evil person walking invisible amongst everyone else. I try to live life with love and excitement. I think sometimes a good crashout after a big event is okay to express about. Mistakes have been made, but experiences have been brought into fruition! I am just not going to be naive of those who treat me poorly. Simply, I will navigate myself with more caution when presented in a crititcal situation.
People aren't evil. People just do bad things (oppressors excluded).
-Solar